Deployment.....

I think this is the most dreaded word in the military's wifes life. Well I guess I can kinda let a cat out of the bag hubby has been slated to deploy in July 09 yeah you read right July of 2009, and before I hear it from anyone I know this is a very advance notice but still it is crazy, I now have a whole entire year to dote on the fact that my husband will be in a war zone it give the Air Force a year to decide oh we don't need him there and cancel it. I was talking to a co-worker of hubby's today and was telling him how last time I only had a 1.5 month notice yet this time I have a whole year to drive myself crazy over worrying what I am going to do and what not and he mentioned going home for the time he is deployed...well I like this idea but also going home requires a 5.5 hr trip with 2 children under 5 not 100% sure I want to do that either. I guess the whole thing is I know I will miss him, I know my kids will miss him. I am glad that we know a year in advance we get 1 more of each holiday with him so 1 more chance to make sure we celebrate these holiday's to the fullest (which I know is not the norm). Please don't get me wrong I am very greatful to have so much notice, I am just a huge worrier anyways so I don't know how I am going to get through the next 12 months waiting for him to deploy, he says it will be a short one but who really knows.